“For if you keep silent at this time, relief and deliverance will rise for the Jews from another place…And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” Esther 4:14
During the Fast of Esther, I felt humble parallels to the line above where Mordechai tells Esther that if she does not stand up to save the Jewish people, perhaps someone else will. After which she became committed to risking her life and approaching King Achashverosh.
In a very humble and subtle way, I experienced something along this theme. This morning, I got an update from the self-publishing company that if I don’t add more pages to my book, it will not meet the minimum thickness required for having writing on the spine of the book.
The project team member verified that I was writing a self-help book and said that I could therefore put in note pages for readers to jot down their thoughts. Now, my book is both a memoir and a self-help book. In providing further self-help tools at the end, I would be declaring evermore that I was writing a self-help book; that I have what to educate people on. The thing is, I have been struggling with this aspect of my book, because I am a nutritionist and a health and wellness coach, not a therapist or life coach who specializes in healthy relationships.
I already put a list of recommended readings at the end of my book, but to add even more resources? To put in note pages?
Gosh, it makes me feel like such a poser!
As I thought more about adding the note pages and other content, I realized that I could share with my readers the names of spiritual retreat programs that I had attended. I then realized that I could also list websites that I have found helpful.
And then, of course, there was that one sex-ed brochure that I really related to. Perhaps I could even reference that?
In deciding to add more tools and resources to my book, I have to admit to myself that it is ok for me to be somewhat of an authority on healthy relationships and sex-ed. Although, I am still nervous that I am inadequate in this role. Surely, I can be a resource to others.
When I called the creators of the sex-ed brochure to discuss how I could appropriately cite it, the woman I spoke with said that it is great that I am writing a self-help memoir about relationships and sex. She assured me that it would help people; that many would relate to my story.
My conversation with the health education company that produced the sex-ed brochure reassured me of my decision to speak out; to not keep silent; to not stay small.